🌸 A Letter to a Struggling Sunny🌸
- Margie Aoko
- Sep 11, 2025
- 6 min read
Trigger Warning: This post talks about suicide, suicidal thoughts and self-harm. Please take care of your heart and only read when you feel safe.
And if all you did today was breathe, my love, then that is enough. You are enough. The sun will rise again and so will you.
🌷 Dear Sunny,
Yesterday, I sat down with a heavy heart and thought of you. This isn’t like my usual dreamy and playful posts, but since it’s Suicide Awareness Month, I felt it was important to pause and write this letter, to the Sunny who feels unseen, unheard and perhaps too tired to keep going. I want to remind you that you are loved, even if right now you feel forgotten.
Life has a strange way of overwhelming us. The plans we so carefully imagine don’t always unfold the way we hoped and sometimes that can feel like betrayal. One day you are full of dreams and the next you’re wondering if it’s worth trying again. If this is you, I want you to know that this post is my hug to you, my way of saying: I see you, I hear you, I love you and you are not alone.
✨ The Weight of a Thousand Voices You Carry...
There are seasons when life just feels unbearably heavy. You might wake up and wonder why you’re still here, why things feel stuck, and why everyone else seems to be moving forward while you’re left behind. Social media only adds salt to the wound endless feeds of smiling faces, thriving careers, glowing friendships and the illusion of perfect lives. And here you are, carrying the quiet ache of disappointment, grief or unhealed wounds.
I know that sting too well. I know how crushing it feels to try so hard only to feel unseen. The truth is, when your mind whispers thoughts of giving up, it’s not because you’re weak. It’s because you’ve been strong for far too long, carrying burdens no one else can see.
But Sunny, please remember: your presence matters. Your being here matters. Even if the world hasn’t paused to recognize it, the universe has never seen another you. And that alone is reason enough to stay.
✨ Love Letters to the Weary Heart...
If you’re reading this and wrestling with those dark thoughts, I want you to feel this as if I’m right beside you: you are not alone. I know how isolating it feels, as if no one understands or could possibly carry the weight with you. But there are people who care deeply about you more than you realize and I want you to count me among them.
You don’t need to have it all figured out to deserve love. You don’t need to be “productive enough” or “happy enough” to be worthy of care. You are already worthy simply because you exist.
Please, Sunny, I am begging you, don’t go through with it. I know it hurts, I know it feels endless, but your story is not finished. You have pages yet to be written, chapters yet to unfold. And though you may not see the light now, it is waiting for you just beyond the bend.
✨ When the Darkness Whispers Too Loudly...
One of the bravest things you can do is whisper, “I need help.” And I know it feels scary, vulnerable, even impossible sometimes. But help is there. Talk to someone: a trusted friend, a sibling, a counselor, a therapist or even a stranger on a hotline. Even if all you say is, “I don’t want to be here right now.” That is enough to begin the conversation.
Even here in this small online corner, my DMs are always open. You don’t have to tell me everything. You don’t have to bleed out all your secrets. Sometimes just knowing someone is on the other side of the screen listening is enough.
If you are someone who has already started harming yourself, or if the thoughts of leaving feel louder than the reasons to stay, please reach out. Your pain is real, but your healing is possible. Here are some gentle starting points:
Call a helpline (numbers below).
Book a session with a therapist or counselor, even if it feels intimidating.
Confide in a loved one who feels safe.
Create a safety plan: write down people you can call, distractions that ground you, and reasons you want to hold on, even small ones.
🌺 To Those Who’ve Lost Someone...
If you’re someone who has lost a loved one to suicide, I am sending all my love and compassion to you too. The grief you carry is unique and heavy and sometimes the guilt becomes unbearable. Please know this: it wasn’t your fault. You helped the best way you knew how. You showed love the way you could, and that will always matter.
And if you’re someone who has a loved one currently battling suicidal thoughts, please listen. Listen without judgment, without dismissing their words, without calling it attention-seeking. Because often it isn’t. It’s a desperate cry for help and your willingness to hear them out could be the lifeline they need.
🌙 Little Anchors for the Stormy Days...
When life feels like it’s crashing over you in endless waves, sometimes it’s the smallest anchors that keep us steady. Gentle, quiet things. The kind of rituals that remind you that you are still here, still breathing, still worthy of care. These won’t ease the pain, but they can offer you a pause, a breath, a soft place to land.
And Sunny, don’t forget sometimes the bravest self-care is reaching out to someone you trust and whispering, “I’m not okay.” It could be a friend, a sibling, a parent, or even someone you don’t usually open up to. You don’t need to have perfect words or polished explanations; your honesty alone is enough. Talking to a loved one not only lightens the weight on your chest, but it also gives them the chance to hold you through the storm. Love often shows up most powerfully when we allow ourselves to be seen in our most fragile moments.
🌸 Gentle Reminders You Can Try
🌱 Make yourself a warm cup of tea and just hold it, feel the warmth in your hands.
📖 Journal your feelings even if all you write is “I don’t know what I feel.”
🎶 Play a song that makes you feel safe and let yourself sway or sing softly.
☀️ Sit in the sun for a few minutes, let the light touch your skin.
✨ Take a shower or bath. Imagine washing away the heaviness with the water.
🕯️ Light a candle and watch the flame reminding yourself you are still here.
🐚 Try grounding: notice 5 things you can see, 4 you can touch, 3 you can hear, 2 you can smell, 1 you can taste.
🌸 To My Sunnies...
Always remember, dear Sunny, you are loved in this little community we are building together. Here, you are safe. Here, you are valued. And even on the days you feel invisible, know that you belong.
Pour into yourself gently. Rest when you need to. Cry when it feels heavy. And remind yourself one breath at a time, one sunrise at a time, you are still here. And that means your story is still unfolding.
☎️ Hotlines You Can Reach Out To
📞 Kenya:
Befrienders Kenya: +254 722 178 177 (24/7 emotional support)
Amani Counselling Centre: +254 20 240 578
🌍 International:
USA: 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline
UK & Ireland: Samaritans at 116 123
Canada: Talk Suicide Canada 1-833-456-4566
Worldwide: Find hotlines at findahelpline.com
💌 And if all you did today was breathe, my love, then that is enough. You are enough. The sun will rise again, and so will you.
With all my love, Margie 🌷
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